longing..

“It’s raining outside...very beautiful. My window’s open and a slight breeze enters my room...and all this time, I’m only thinking of you. I don’t know if you ever think of me but nowadays you are the only thing on my mind. I wonder what you are doing now, I wonder where you are...As I listen to the sound of the rain I remember the times that I made you walk under it with me...the way we kissed under the rain...the way we looked at each other...oh, I miss you so. You, not being here with me is really painful...but I know that this will be better for us....I can hear the wind and the birds outside and I want you here with me, to listen to this right by me. Just be here with me so we can lie on the bed together once again. Hug me as I turn my back to you and look outside...hold me tight and slowly kiss my neck...gently but firmly...let me feel a chill down my spine...I’ll close my eyes and feel your soft lips on my skin and let us share the silence of the night...not say a word...just listen to the rain and feel each other. Let’s listen to the rain drops falling on the ground and slowly, together, let’s fall a sleep. Then, I’ll see you in my dream...and you’ll see me too. I’ll want to wake up as soon as possible just so I can really kiss you and look into your eyes. While I’m thinking of this, half asleep...you’ll wake up and start caressing me and slowly start moving your hands tenderly over my body. Let me feel your lips on my skin as I wake up and I will feel a chill and a tingling feeling will overcome my whole body as you softly kiss my neck...just because you know the right place...the exact place that you need to kiss...to make me feel. My temperature will slowly start rising and I will turn towards you....touch your cheek with my hand while you firmly hold my neck and pull me towards you and our lips will connect....as the sun rises. Just as you kiss me, that feeling will wrap around my body...the love, that passion....the need to get closer to you and then...well...you know the rest. Look how a rain drop can make someone feel...I close my eyes and I see you...I feel your presence but when I open my eyes I’m faced with dissappointment....because you’re not here...you’re not hugging me nor are you kissing me. I just hold on to an old emotion....with the hope that I’ll feel it again some day....
....where are you...”